Baby, you light up my world like nobody else.

Yeap, From the title, pretty obvious. Kekeke, I'mma little into One Direction. 's songs. HAHAHA. Feel so bitchy this year. Been gossiping since the start of the year. Seems like my way to relieve stress. Can't deny this fact. It's just so uncontrollable. When everyone else is talking, I wanna join in. Danng, I'm like some attention seeker. But, tbh, I really dislike attention seekers. I feel that they are like, so , so , irritating. I hope I am not one to the others. So, I'm gonna talk about Daikin. So pissed. It's like when we're close, we're close. Then when she has other friends , I'm being kicked away, like some soccer ball which she certainly dont give a damn to. I'm just so insignificant. I'm not trying to live for others, but, I feel that I want to be special in someone's life. At least be that little bit of significance to show that , I am alive? Idk. Since the start of this year, I've become real pessimistic. Despite trying to be optimistic , cheerful infront of the others, I really feel that I'm deeply hated by many people. It's probably because what I've heard of people saying behind my back. Once. Its all it took. To lose my trust, our friendship. I feel that I'm outcasted. I feel selfish. I feel, foreveralone. It's like, the guy don't treat me as a girl. They probably treat me like their brother but I really hope they can respect me and treat me as a girl . Girl friends seem to be disliking me more each day. Our friendship seems to be drifting further. It's a stressed year too. O's. It doesn't seem easy. Stressed. Everyone's commenting that it is confirmed that I can go to a JC. MrK told me not to be complacent with my results despite scoring better than most people in the class. In fact , I'm really disappointed with my own results. Many people may think that I'm being stupid. Or even proud. The thing is, I've deproved. I'm deproving. That is my main concern. It isn't about the grades I get. Isn't our aims in life to keep up and improve. Like the touchstone "We learn, unlearn and relearn to stay relevant" . Related to this, I regretted quiting LBC. I really want to be a redshirt. Hais, why do I need to face all this problems at this crucial period of time. Oh and this isn't all. CCA. I'm just gonna screw up this speech day performance . Since she wants to be in control of everything and does not trust my ability, why should I care. But, I need to tell you, the teacher put me in charge, I should be doing it. Don't cross my line. "I'm not gonna care about what others think about me, I am me" is what I always say. But, It really isn't easy to comply with it. I just felt like bombing everything out. Thanks for this blog. I'mma like so emo XD Cannot be like that! Gonna go for China trip to Fuzhou on monday alr, Not done with packing and all kinds of stuff. Hais. March holiday homework piling up to 3 months work . Hais. Shall go now, hope to post soon . Gotta relieve stress :D

Confession.

Things never get simple. They get complicated. Dangg, why did I send that text in the first place. I never knew I would be so 'brave' . Hais anyway, his reply was unexpected and made me like 'nervous' for one whole day! Didn't have a good night sleep because of the text. "I like you too" Seems easy for him to say, he didn't have much reaction after my text. Everything was just so awkward. I'm afraid I won't be able to face him like I usually do , in school. This feels like falling in love. But, I'm not sure how his feelings for me are. :/ He said he's serious about it. Me too. I hope he'll be taking the initiative though. Haish, complicated relationship stuff. Guys, don't make a girl fall for you if you don't plan to catch her.

Stupidlated

HAHAHAHA, Epic title for this blog entry. It doesn't have any meaning >< It's just there for the sake of being there! This year is most probably the worst CNY celebration I had man. Got hit in the head by a mandarin orange T.T Homework like free during the CNY holiday, which was 2 days. Oh, and I recently screwed up my Physics EM waves plus Light test. I thought it was gonna be more focused on EM waves, who knows. It came out much on ray diagram and construction. What's worse, I didnt read the question properly and even after teacher prompting us, I still made a mistake. He's probably gonna vomit blood after marking my paper. I have low hopes, a pass is all I wish for. Took speed of reaction test today. Partially screwed up, still having high hopes! (: Now, I'm troubled for tmr's PMP, should I go or should I not? Hmm...

Btw, Stupidlated is a word invented from the word stipulated. Inventor is Nigel Lim Jek Ming, and he invented it during EL lesson. It was most epic.

The unexpected truth

Everything seems so grey to me now. Feels like if the world is joking with me, is it because I joke too much? Probably. Anyways, she's attached, really congrats her from deep down inside of my heart :D Last long friend! <3 Everything is so unexpected. The previous generation never thought how their actions would affect us, and just did according to their preferrences. Isn't it us the ones who are suffering now? Cant afford to let all this affect me, 10 points and below is my target for the O's, Go Shiying! I can do it!

081111

Three more days to 111111! ((:

Egggcited to see the time and the date to be the same!

There will be many many couples getting married! Likea cool, according the newspaper is cos the date easy to remember and its a nice date. Agree much , 11-11-11 a day that comes once in a lifetime . Anywayys, Today wasnt a bad day . Went for cg around 1 plusplus. Practically slacked the whole time cos of being a score master . Then went for break at minimart with jiawen . I ate 2 red bean pao! Yummy yummy . Ahh then continue go back practice, I went to the back of the auditorium and teach the sec 4 seniors(: Make me feel so bad cos my skills also not say likea pro . Anywayys they were all very understanding , teehees. After that went home uhh, but met up with xueyi at Pasir ris interchange before taking bus home.

Tmr's gonna be a long day. Hais, gotta wake up at 7 plus, hahaha. Not sure whether can or not, But must uhh . Got lesson at 9. Hmmm, Alright. Shall stop here lerhh. Byebyebye((:

Memories that doesnt fade away.

Kekeke, Speech day was awesomely boring! :) I am like seriously trying my very best not to be emo or something cos of you. What's the use. hahah. You wont know, will you? (: Therefore, theres no point uhh. ;D Kayy, I woke up at 530 to prepare for school. My bro too. Supposed to meet isabelle and joyce at playground at 615 then cab to school. However, isabelle was late. LOL. It took us forever to flag for a cab. Like LOL. Finally manage to get a taxi. It was 4.80 but the driver charged us 4.00 , easier for us to split money ;D Thank you uncle. hehe. Reached chool, then like so many ppl reach le . wow. It was only 6:46. Anyway, I was freaking sleepy larh. Then all those miscellaneous stuff, eg. makeup, change, put casing back in auditorium.. etc. Ate burger for breakfast. Saw band. Xueyi like chio only lorh. Jealous >< LOL. Speech day really all speech lorh. I almost fell asleep sia. Paiseh ttm. All the guests sit so near only. Then was prize presentation .COOL TTM. I must get 1 next year ;D hahaha. Then was concert . I think it was quite okayy, but CG could have done better(: JY! SYF in 10 days :O Scared scared. hahah. Must get GOLD sia. First and Last SYF in CORAL lerh. )': I wanna go overseas exchange trip, AGAIN! :D --------------------------------------Some memories , just dont disappear. Ithink. Ihaventtotallyforgottenboutyou.Ithink.Idontlikeyou.Ithink.Itsback,again.

Minutes went past.

Hellooooo. kekeke. Like few days bo post lorh sia. Heheh, like retarded larh this few days. LOL. Epic only. anywayy, today was quite ,,,, okayy barh. First period was CLD, like chiong homework period LOL. Then was POA. Saw dora the explorer. Heehee. Mrs Liu finished up source documents and did some exercises. Yay. POA no homework ;D Then was RECESS! :D Xueyao was like funny larh. He came and ask me what period it was next. I was like LOL. Its recess. then he was like oh. Funny only larh. Then went to canteen with xueyi (: Ate chicken rice and drank VITASOY! :D Then had chinese. Yuan yuan nvr come for two days lerh. Like yay cos his lessons are forever that freaking boring. (no offence) Hmmm, then was english. Had a somehow surprise compo test -.- I chiong like free heheh. It was exposition writing. Lol. Last period wad chemistry. Retarded. I sure cnt get full marks for the quiz liao lorh. 1st question jiu wrong liao sia :'( Then cher went through Titration method. After that he gave back Acids and Bases test. 24/25 :D But alot ppl get A1 also luhh. Then went to slack with dayna and jiaqi. Epic. Borrowed books together at the library. (: Later going gym with leeting. YAY. Hehehe.